MY STORY
1. Catcher in The Light
2. About You
3. GAME
4. my name's WOMEN
5. WONDERLAND
6. Liar
7. HOPE or PAIN
8. HAPPY ENDING
9. Moments
10. walking proud
11. CAROLS
12. Kaleidoscope
13. INSPIRE
14. HONEY
15. Replace
16. winding road
17. Humming 4/7
Thank you very much, Bryan, for kindly proofreading most of the translations here. (Dec. 2004)
1. Catcher in The Light
If you only look
You will never get it
If you only look
It will never be yours
2. About You
Everyone surely has darkness
Hidden somewhere in their heart
Sometimes it prevents them
From living as they wish
We can't imagine other people's pain
It's hard for us to share it
But if I meet someone
Whom I really want to face
I don't want to feel fear
You shut the door of your heart with a violent noise
And lost the key to open it
A long time ago
So please tell me
Exactly what you feel
Just with common words
And with common expressions
Please let me hear
It's so fearful to believe
What is invisible and formless
But if you can do so
Don't you feel it's wonderful?
Even in the middle of such a grey city
Where you can hardly hold yourself together
Don't laugh so weakly
With a resigned look
As if to say "Such is life"
* Where is the person
Who could get what he wanted
Without making any sacrifices
You see?
You have the thing which I long for
Which I had lost and will never get again
However strongly I wish for it
You shut the door of your heart with a violent noise
And lost the key to open it
A long time ago
So please tell me
Exactly what you feel
Just with common words
And with common expressions
* (repeat)
It's so dazzling to me
3. GAME
Little by little the warmth you left me with is going out
If it's gone completely, what will my body mean?
Seized with several impulses, I'm lost in a maze with no exit
The sense of reality urges me suddenly to find the way out
But why can't I leave this place, so strangely?
* I can smile naturally about this time tomorrow
As if nothing had happened
I've always walked in such a manner
But I can't control this game as I wish
The moment I say something
Everything may slip down through my fingers like sands
And I only wait the time passing by so calmly
** I need no makeshift words
Which I'll probably forget about this time tomorrow
I had made this game a little longer than usual
No problem, I'll be able to find another one
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
Please tell me that this pain is surely an illusion
Please tell me that I'm not like myself at all now
Please tell me, because otherwise, I'll yearn for your warmth again
4. my name's WOMEN
I like glittering things and pretty things
As much as before
But being cool and being tough
Have become more important lately
* You see? Times have changed so much
But why do I still hear such words as
"Tears are women's weapons"?
** We don't cry easily
We are not always coquettish
We are not dolls
Who are only dressed-up
*** We have our weak sides
We are not always smiling
Don't forget
That we don't exist to be convenient for you
Though it's certain
I have a pain in my chest on some nights
It might be true
The more one experiences pain
The more he can be tender and strong
**** Do you think you have controlled everything
With a knowing look?
We are not dolls
Who are only dreaming
***** Do you think you have cheated us well
With a satisfied look?
Do remember
That we are not such simple beings
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
*** (repeat)
**** (repeat)
***** (repeat)
6. Liar
Spending my days too unproductively
I was just intoxicated with funny feelings
The first kiss, various events
Sometimes I became so possessive
* The only thing I could do at that time was
To really try turning my back on love
I might have known too early
The terrible rebound after happiness
"To behave generally is the best"
Such an illusion was too simple and just shallow
** Your back I saw off for the last time still take up my mind
How long should I wait to be released?
"The more you love me, the more my heart aches
I don't love ... any more"
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
7. HOPE or PAIN
What am I expecting?
Every time the phone receiver
I'm grasping trembles
My heart leaps
But soon I'm let down with a sigh
How many times will I continue to do this?
How long am I going to believe the words, "some other day"
When it will never come?
It's better to forget
Thinking that I just dreamed for a little while
Though I know very well
A miracle will never happen
Though I know very well
I'm sorry I told you abruptly that day
That everything became suddenly unclear
The last time that I saw your tears
Is still clinging to my memory
Why couldn't I believe in you .
Right in front of me?
You see? It must have been good enough
Only to love what I was loving
Almost clumsily
I wonder if I could leave
Something for you
When time passes by
What will be left for me?
My heart going on wishing for a miracle?
Or just
A scar?
8. HAPPY ENDING
There are lots of stars
As if to fill the gap between thick clouds
They are shining like a prayer
Almost like a shout
And my chest is constricted
I hope the morning will come for me soon
Before I can't hide up my weakness
* It's strange I feel so lonely at night
Only because you are not here
After how many times of
Committing a sin like this
Will I be inhuman?
Will I be invisible to everyone?
I find nothing I want in a place like this
Which I escaped and tumbled into
I rip my feelings off my heart
And stick a smile on the mask
Please take me away from here
Before everything becomes a memory
** I felt I knew the meaning of love a little
After I had met you
If I can finish my penance some day
If I'm forgiven some day ...
But I have no right after all that
To tell the definition of happiness
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
Well, I know better than anyone else
That a happy ending never suits me
9. Moments
Your heart began to be scorched, and there was a smell of it
It was the end of your dream, and the start of everything
What you adored looked beautiful to you
It became even brighter because you couldn't reach it
The broken pieces of your dream
Pierce my heart
Leaving the pain
That I should never forget
* If my life is transient like a flower
I'll be in full bloom by your side
And after watching your smile
I'll fall alone, quietly
How was the scenery you saw
When you were pushed into an abyss of despair
Your naked heart is wandering
Having nowhere to go
And is setting sharp thorns around
For fear of being touched
** If I could flutter like a bird
I would fly to you
And offer my wing
To your wounded back
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
If I could flow like the wind
I would reach you
If I could shine like a moon
I would keep shining on you
I'll be anything
If it can stop you from being seized with fear
10. walking proud
My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
I suppose it was for no one else
But only to protect me
When I was thoughtless
When I noticed, I was trapped and at a loss
Surrounded by countless lies
* The sky I looked up at was beautiful
I thought of you
I wished I could walk with firm steps
Facing forward like you
But I escaped from the reality
Escaped from all the pain
I said to myself
"I'll be my ideal self some day
Though I'm far from that now"
After such excuses, my eyes were opened
What I could do was only to live in the present time
** Does this voice reach you?
Does it ring in your heart?
I'm walking on today
Looking at your back as a guidepost to live
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
11. CAROLS
Do you remember the first day we met even now?
You looked abashed, hanging your head
And turning your eyes away
I wonder when such a manner became so dear to me
It makes me feel a little nostalgic
Don't you feel so?
Many seasons have passed by
With quick steps since then
* When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again
We talked overnight about our future and the moments
I felt they were so dazzling
And precious
Tears welled up in my eyes
When I thought it would be nice
That I could forgive my past some day
** When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart
The days we couldn't understand each other and parted
The days of tears, the days of smiling faces
Whatever may happen and whatever mood you may be in
I'll always accept you
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
13. INSPIRE
Giving a smile fit for each situation
Saying plausible words
I go blank
It's about time to end up pretending to be impassive
* No one can live alone
No one can live without love
Though they are matters of course
Now I keenly feel so
** You are blaming on this age
But what is the excuse for?
You see? To talk about love or dream
Is not uncool at all
Whom are the words for?
What is the process for?
What does it mean to live?
If there are definate answers, don't you think it's boring?
*** I don't have to hesitate any more
I know what I want to protect
It's too late to turn back,
Which I know very well
**** Yes, I stand up again and again
If there is a wall, we can break it
Don't you think our lives have only just begun?
So long as there is a way, we can open the door
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
*** (repeat)
**** (repeat)
14. HONEY
On the days when somehow everything goes wrong
With bad timing
And I almost hate myself
I lose composure
And can hardly be kind to others
And I get more depressed
* I might hurt
My dearest person most
In such times
** (my HONEY) You are always by my side
You are embarrassingly positive
And walk on leading me by the hand
*** (my HONEY) You are always by my side
Yes, closer than anyone else
You know me much more than I do
There are also the days
When everything goes so well somehow
That I'm left speechless
And I remember your profile
When you cried together with me
As if it had been your own matter
**** (my HONEY) Please be my side forever
When I look up, I see your smile
That hasn't changed in years
***** (my HONEY) Please be my side forever
Yes, closer than anyone else
I know you much more than you do
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
*** (repeat)
**** (repeat)
***** (repeat)
15. Replace
* I keep on singing
So that my voice may reach you
** I tell you
And I'd like you
To tell someone
"You are not alone"
Once we thought and talked
About the distant future
We are now standing at that place
We dreamed fantasies
In our infancies
They are now unfolding surreally before our eyes
But I never forget your profile
When you said firmly
With tears in your eyes
That you would never be beaten
*** I keep on singing
So that my voice may reach you
I hope you will walk on without giving up
Till the time we can meet again
Please show me your usual smile then
One thing I've realized is
This road will continue as before
Whatever wind may blow us
Under the sky of whatever colour
I hope you will smile
I leave this song here
Instead of saying good-bye
I hope you will walk on without giving up
Till the time we can meet again
Even if you may sometimes shed a secret tear
* (repeat)
I leave this song here
Instead of saying good-bye
I hope you will walk on without giving up
Till the time we can meet again
*** (repeat)
** (repeat)
16. winding road
Like a bird that forgot how to fly
I forgot how to walk
And ran and ran
Now I look back on the road
Which I feel
Both long and short
Yes, this is the road I chose
* The footprints I left behind
Are distorted and muddy
But I don't regret them at all
I'm proud of them from the bottom of my heart
Yes, this is the road I chose
* (repeat)
I can't live along well as before
I'm not so tactful
But one thing I can tell you is
I keep on going this way with my head held high
A bird that forgot how to fly
Will be able to flap its wings once again
Just as I could start walking again
17. Humming 7/4
A stranger asks me with interest
How do I see the scenery from here?
I answer
It's just as you think it would be
For it's no use explaining it
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I go my way
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
Humming a song
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
If it makes no difference whether I may cry or smile
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I smile
I prepare an expected answer
But
What's the use of saying it?
(everybody GO! everybody JUMP!)
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You can fly higher
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
Because you have wings
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You don't have to be afraid
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I'm just the same
What I adore is
Commonplace scenery
Even if it's not understood by anyone
Please don't deny
That this is my wish
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
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